As some of you know, I was recently in a MormonTimes Summer Showcase contest. Without going into details, I essentially made it to the second level of the contest, but lost in the end. There were some fantastic artists in the contest, and I would have been surprised if I had advanced to the third level. The winners are very talented, and deserve to move on.
I have had mixed feelings about the contest throughout. It was very competitive, slightly confusing, and got me a lot of positive attention, including a couple of newspaper articles in the MormonTimes (Deseret News) newspaper and the Sanpete messenger. Actually, it was my wife, Jenni, who told me about the contest and offered to sign me up. I’m very glad she did, though I’m not much for contests when it comes to the arts – especially when I lose 😀
It wasn’t really losing the contest that bothered me, though. Actually, I was quite relieved. I know performing in a big concert would have been helpful to my musical career, but it scares me to death to perform in front of anything bigger than a ward. The thing that made me feel funny about the whole thing is the fact that it overshadowed the new CD that was just released at the same time as the contest winners were announced. I guess it just shows how ineffective I am at marketing, but for the week since I lost the contest, I’ve had numerous friends and neighbors come to me and say, “How did you do on the contest?” or “Sorry about the contest!”
This has been happening every day, and its very kind of them. But no one has come and said, “Hey! I hear you have a new CD out!” or “I love the music on your new CD,” 0r “When is your new CD coming out?”
I guess the reason it feels funny is because I never really cared much about the contest (though I’m so grateful for how kind everyone has been to me about it all!), but I care a great deal about the music I have just released. To me, it’s like calling a new mother on the phone and saying, “I’m so sorry to hear that your gerbil died” while she’s happily holding her new baby. Silly analogy, I guess.
Having said that, I should clarify that my blog readers have been AWESOME!!! They’ve been listening and enjoying the new music, and that means a lot to me. Thank you!
That’s really why I write the music – for the listeners; those who are touched by what they hear; those who want to be better when they hear it. If my music just became a means to getting attention to myself, I’d stop writing it.