The Gift of Music

by Leola Jex Freshwater Curtis

I knew the old pump organ had just been loaned to us. Someday the owner would want it back. But in those Depression days it seemed so wonderful to have music in our home that I didn’t even want to think of the future. I just wanted to enjoy it.

Each morning as I dusted the curves and edges of the organ I marveled at the beauty of the wood. I liked to let my hand move along the curved part that covered the keys. I liked it best when this part was forlded back, when I could see fingers on the keyboard, and listen to the deep mellow tones. It was then I’d do my dreaming of the time when I’d be all grown up. It was then I’d see myself sitting there playing.

I’d watch Papa pump the big pedals with his feet to get the music started. He’d keep pumping steadily as he played, and the room would be filled with his music.
“I’ve just got to learn how,” I told Papa.

Papa stopped long enough to nod towards the other end of the bench, “Then sit down here,” he said, waiting for me, “and let’s get started.”

He told me about low C, and hight C, had me sound the notes over and over. Then I played them while he did the pumping. It was hard to reach from the low note to the high note with my small hand, but it was fun to let my fingers run up and down the keys. It was like running up and down a hill. Papa always made learning fun.

Papa said it was a good idea to learn to play music by ear, too. That way, he said, you didn’t need to worry if someone asked you to play, and you hadn’t brought your music along, or if you didn’t happen to have the money to buy it. Papa could play really well. He could just listen to a song and then sit down and play it. Even if I just sang a school song once, Papa could play it. It was like magic.

One day I was hurrying home from school, humming a song we had learned, so I could remember it long enough for him to play it on the organ. I was almost home when I noticed the Mover’s Truck at our front door. I couldn’t believe it would stop at our house. We weren’t moving anywhere. But there it was, right against the door.
Then I knew. There could only be one reason. The time was up. It was like I’d been hit in the gut. It was hard to breathe, and all I could do was stand and stare as they carried out the organ. I watched Papa helping them. Then I knew I couldn’t stand it yet, going in that big bare room with all the beauty gone.

I cut across the fields, past the pear tree, back to where the wild plums were, into my secret hiding place. I felt the shaking in my body and the hurting in my throat, but it didn’t matter. I remember thinking, “It isn’t fair. Not when I was just learning. Why couldn’t they leave it just a little longer?”

Now I knew I’d never learn. Papa wouldn’t ever get enough money to buy us an organ. He was lucky to just get enough work to get food on our table. It wasn’t his fault. There just wasn’t any work to get.

Papa found me there a little later. He didn’t say anything. He just dropped down beside me on the grass. I felt a tear rolling down my cheek. I’d decided to ignore it, but papa took out his big red handkerchief and wiped the tear away. I’d never seen Papa look so sad. His tanned face looked thinner, older somehow. I noticed lines on his forehead, and by his lips that tried not to tremble. His blue eyes didn’t have any twinkle today. They were just red-edged and filled with water. A tear slipped down his own cheek but he just brushed it quickly away with the back of his hand, as if he didn’t want me to see it.

It was nice to sit with Papa. You didn’t have to worry about talking. You could both look at the green leaves dancing there over your head in the gentle breeze. You could look at the patterns of shadows they made all around you. It was nice hearing the humming of the bees and the chirping of the birds. Both of you, not talking, just sitting there listening.
Then quite suddenly, from further away there came the clear sweet tone of a Meadow Lark’s song. I turned to look at Papa, and his face had brightened. His eyes looked almost happy again and I thought he was going to smile. Instead, his lips puckered and formed into a whistling shape. I wondered why Papa would stop to whistle at a time like this. Then I heard the clear tone, the perfect imitation of the bird’s call.

I knew what would happen now. The bird answered him. They always did. So Papa whistled again to the bird, and thi time the answer was closer – close enough so we could see him. The bird hopped a few steps, tipped his head as if to listen. Then quite suddenly he flipped his wings and took off high into the blue sky.

“Isn’t it amazing,” Papa said softly, “that such a small creature could carry in his tiny throat the most magical musical instrument of all?”

“It’s all right for a bird,” I said, still remembering the lost organ. “Anyhow I couldn’t ever be a very good singer, if that’s what you’re getting at. Teacher told me to sing Alto, cause my voice is too low.”

“Is that what you’re thinking?” he asked, “She probably just wanted more harmony. Singing in harmony, now that is a gift. Not everybody can do that.”

“I know. That’s what teacher told me too, and she said if only the best singers were the singers, it’d be a quieter place. How’s that supposed to make me feel?”

I could see a puzzled look in Papa’s eyes, and I felt like a traitor. I knew I should feel thankful for my voice, and I was, but right now it didn’t seem like anything too special, not like being able to play an organ, anyway.

“Well, it’s true,” Papa said, “there are people that sing better, maybe, than others, and if you don’t feel like singing, that’s up to you. But tell me, how many people have you heard whistle – I mean really whistle?”

Suddenly a new hope flooded through me. If Papa could just teach me to whistle the way he did, so even the birds answered and came to him…

“How?” I asked, almost afraid to hope.

He was smiling again now but his voice turned serious as he spoke, “You have to learn to hold your lips just right. They have muscles in them too, you know, just like anywhere else in your body. Then you shape the sound just right. That comes with practice. You learn to ease it out, just so, shaping, holding, and letting it go to grab another.”

As he talked, I watched his lips. I felt my own taking shape, puckering. It was a strange feeling. I listened as he demonstrated the sounds. He urged me to try it once.

Cautiously I did try, puckering my lips, and feeling the vibrations across my lips as a buzzing blurred sound fell from my mouth. I felt like crying, I was so disappointed.
“You’ve got a sound,” Papa said joyfully, “Now all you have to do is to practice on it and improve on it. You’ll be surprised how well you can do.”

Papa looked around, at the plum bushes, the grass, of my secret hiding place, and said, “Seems to me you have a pretty good place right here to do your practicing.”

The shadows were growing longer as we walked toward the house that day. I remember the sun shining through the tree branches was low in the west. I remember too, the long hours of practice until I too, could whistle the way I wanted to. But most of all I remember the Papa who knew how to comfort a broken-hearted little girl, and how he gave her once again, the gift of music.

The Sound of Silent Whistling

The Sound Of Silent Whistling

Remember the time I was whistling with my heart and soul? Well, I’ve been at it again. I decided to go for a lighter tune. I used to wonder why they don’t have whistle choirs. I don’t wonder anymore. It sounds like a bad impression of a broken music box. Or a broken something, anyway.

The Sound of Silent Whistling

The Sound Of Silent Whistling

Remember the time I was whistling with my heart and soul? Well, I’ve been at it again. I decided to go for a lighter tune. I used to wonder why they don’t have whistle choirs. I don’t wonder anymore. It sounds like a bad impression of a broken music box. Or a broken something, anyway.

If You’re Going to Whistle, at Least Put Your Whole Heart and Soul Into It!


Heart and Whi-soul

My grandma loved to whistle.  She whistled all the time.  In fact she loved doing it so much that she would tape-record herself whistling.  She was a true whistler.  As a result, I have inherited… tapes of her whistling.  But I also inherited her love for whistling.  Here’s a recording of me whistling.

Her advantage?  She was FAR more talented at whistling.

My advantage?  A MacBook Pro with Garage-Band…